As easy as it would be to sit here and tell you how this year has been crap, I would be lying. Yes, it has been hard. Yes, it’s felt defeating. And, yes, sometime I felt like my entire world was crumbling to pieces. But, really, this year has been filled with great blessings.
I’ve been through some terrible things. But I wasn’t alone. My family came together and worked as one unit to nurse me back to health. Family flew in from out of state so that my husband could work. Family that lives in state came over and sat with me just to keep me company.
I met some incredible friends this year, too. A few of those friendships started with me being their mentor, but that developed into a deep friendship that I appreciate so much.
My kids are kinder. To others and to me. I think they thought I could really die. And I think it scared them to their core. I have 17 and 12 year old sons. They do their best now to take care of me. When I’m not feeling well, one of them will step up and take over what I was doing just so I can rest.
My husband loved me beyond reason. I have major insecurities. Sometimes they come out and he has to “convince” me that he isn’t going anywhere. I know he isn’t. It’s just that sometimes I wonder if I am good enough for him. He’s so amazing, he deserves someone far greater than me.
I’m not one for making resolutions. But this year I plan on making and keeping just one. Joy. I want to see happiness everywhere. I want to feel contentment as I watch my family. I want to enjoy life to its fullest. And I want to be the cause of someone else’s elation. In a time that it is easier to be down and depressed, I choose love, happiness, and kindness.
Fun fact: My husband and I met at a high school New Year’s party. We have spent every single New Year’s together since. This year will be our 19th year together. ❤️💙❤️💙