If I had to do it all over….

I am often asked this question. And during the first several months, I’d say absolutely. But I keep having complications. When I went into this experience, I honestly thought I was taking the “easy way out.” But if you know my story, this has definitely NOT been easy.

I have been through more in the last 2+ years than most people have in their entire life. Stress has caused a lot of turmoil in my life. And I feel that half of my problems are from just that: stress.

Let’s make this short and sweet. If I had to do all of this again, I absolutely most certainly would NOT do this again. I would never have had bariatric surgery to begin with. I would take the “easy way out.” To me, now, the easy way out is through diet and exercise.

I realize that most people have amazing results from bariatric surgery. And when people ask me if it was worth it, I can honestly say that, no, it wasn’t worth it. I may have taken years off of my life because of the complications I’ve had. I have taken years away from my husband, kids, and future grandkids because I wanted to be healthy. But it had turned into just the opposite. I am more unhealthy than I have ever been.

I meet with a gastroenterologist about my sliding hiatal hernia tomorrow. I am hoping to get some good news, but my primary doctor doesn’t think that will happen. So I continue to hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.

I’ve really learned who is on my side. I’ve decided to cut a few people out of my life because they only bring negativity into my life. And to be honest, negativity is only causing me more stress. So I’m cutting those cords. I feel more than ever that this is what is right. I’ve learned to appreciate those who are on my side, even though my side seems to be negative too. I try to remain positive, but it can be difficult. So, thank you, to every single person who has stuck by me and continually asks if they can help in any way. I have love for each and every one of you. ❤️❤️