First Entry

Placeholder ImageSo, here we go. Wednesday is my first appointment with the doctor who will, hopefully, be performing the gastric sleeve surgery. I’m worried because the sleeve may not be the best option. If it isn’t, then I’ll have to go to a doctor an hour away for gastric bypass. I really don’t want the bypass option, but, obviously, if the doctor thinks that’s the best choice, then that is what I’ll do. I know this is the right path for me now, but I am still concerned. With two kids that are fully dependent on me, I have to be able to get through this. The risks are high, but the benefits outweigh them. I will struggle now, but will be better later. My kids and husband will need me for a long time. So I need to do this for them. I don’t care about the losing weight part, I care about the being healthy part.

I have chosen to tell only a select few of this decision. And I am thankful that they are willing to keep this to themselves until I am prepared to tell the world. But I still fear judgment by those few people. Will that fear ever go away? I’m not so sure. But I hope that I will learn to not care what others think. That the ability to accept what is, will become second nature to me.

But, for now, I will keep this to myself and my small circle. Until the day comes that keeping it to myself is no longer an option.

Published by: CurvyFitFabuLOSS

My name is Jessica Wolfe. I am the wife of an incredible man and father. He and I have been together longer than we have been apart. We have two sons, one is 18 and a freshman at Indiana State University majoring in Music Education. Our 13 year old son is in the 7th grade and is being home schooled. My vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery was on June 16, 2016. My total gastrectomy was March 3, 2017. I’ve recently found out I have a fairly large benign tumor in my brain. I also have something going on in my lower spine between my L5 and S1. It seems as though surgery is imminent. Through this blog, I share my life with you and am brutally honest with myself so that when I do look back, I can see what it was that made me make the decisions I did. I also welcome opinions and questions as it challenges my thoughts and helps me grow from where I am. If you want to check me out anywhere else, please do! Instagram: CurvyFitFabuLOSS Snapchat: Momma_Wolfe717 Email: CurvyFitFabuLOSS@yahoo.com

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2 thoughts on “First Entry”

  1. As someone who’s gone through the bypass it changed my life. You don’t realize how excluded you are from activities when your a larger size. You so can do this!!!

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  2. You are stronger than you think. Our judgment of you before and after will always be you are great! Love yourself for the beautiful person you are ❤️😊

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