The countdown has begun!

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Yep, that’s right. Less than two weeks until my surgery. Yesterday I started my 14 day pre-op liver reduction diet. And boy was it tough. Cutting out caffeine (COFFEE!!!!!) is going to be a bigger challenge than I thought. By the end of the day, my head felt like it was going to explode. For those that don’t know, caffeine is dehydrating. And with your stomach being so much smaller, it can be a struggle to get in enough fluids throughout the day.

I am going through the motions of preparing myself mentally for this surgery. Although, I don’t really think it is possible to be completely prepared. Mostly because, even though I’ve asked people what it was like for them, it is near impossible to completely understand what life after surgery will be like for me. Everyone is different and we all have our own journeys.

I downloaded a countdown app to my phone just to keep it real in my head. It’s easy to say, “Oh, this little bite of something bad won’t hurt me.” So I want that constant reminder. As of this exact moment, this is what my countdown shows:

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Those thoughts that a little bit of this or that are almost always in the back of my head. It is, quite honestly, why I have failed at losing weight so many times already. Weight is a constant struggle, a battle of sorts between self sabotage and self control. And for many of us, self sabotage has won time and time again. We don’t have the tools to fight back. So we overeat, then feel guilty, resolve to do better next time, and then overeat again. It is a vicious cycle that won’t end until we admit to ourselves that we can not win this unless we seek help. For me, talk therapy helped quite a bit. I’ve been able to conquer binge eating. Which is saying a lot because it was a huge problem for me. Now, with that under control, I feel like this surgery is the next step. It is a tool that is in my shed waiting to be utilized. And I am ready to do so.

I have also been watching videos on YouTube of the actual surgery. It is very interesting to actually see the stapler they use on your stomach. I think it’s kind of cool.

Thanks for reading! I’ll check back in with you in a few days to update you on this pre-op diet.

Published by: CurvyFitFabuLOSS

My name is Jessica Wolfe. I am the wife of an incredible man and father. He and I have been together longer than we have been apart. We have two sons, one is 18 and a freshman at Indiana State University majoring in Music Education. Our 13 year old son is in the 7th grade and is being home schooled. My vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery was on June 16, 2016. My total gastrectomy was March 3, 2017. I’ve recently found out I have a fairly large benign tumor in my brain. I also have something going on in my lower spine between my L5 and S1. It seems as though surgery is imminent. Through this blog, I share my life with you and am brutally honest with myself so that when I do look back, I can see what it was that made me make the decisions I did. I also welcome opinions and questions as it challenges my thoughts and helps me grow from where I am. If you want to check me out anywhere else, please do! Instagram: CurvyFitFabuLOSS Snapchat: Momma_Wolfe717 Email: CurvyFitFabuLOSS@yahoo.com

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9 thoughts on “The countdown has begun!”

    1. I’m getting the sleeve. We don’t need to do a full liquid diet. I think that part varies based on your surgeon. We do a shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch, and a very small dinner (protien and veggies).

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  1. Congrats on starting your pre op diet and countdown to surgery. I remember the pre op diet the first day I thought I was going to pass out of hunger but around day 3 it gets better because it becomes routine. If you ever get bored I posted everyday when I was going through the liquid diet now I read those posts and laugh. Hang strong I know it feels it will never end but eventually it does and then it will be the big day 🙂

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