In This Skin


(The above picture was taken almost 17 years ago)

Back in the day, weight wasn’t my problem. I thought it was, I thought I was huge. But looking back, I realize how misplaced those thoughts were. I would have done anything to slim down, including not eating. I would sometimes go days without anything to eat just because I was afraid of gaining an ounce.

And now, while I am a few pounds shy of my heaviest, I still feel the same way. I look back and wonder if I’ve ever felt comfortable with my body. I’m not sure that I’ve ever felt good in my skin. In a society where you have to be thin to be considered beautiful, I have always looked to others for some sort of validation, whether it be comments from friends or compliments from my husband. I’ve never been able to provide that for myself.

I didn’t set out on this journey to feel beautiful. My goal has always been to get healthy. But I realize that I should have a goal of being happy with my body. Afterall, this body was the home for 9 months to each of my boys. This body protected them and nurtured them. They are here because of this body.

I think it’s time to care for this body that I was given in the way this body cared for them. I would do anything for my kids. Why shouldn’t taking care of my body be any different? These shoulders of mine, they will be the place where my kids can cry upon during moments of heartbreak. This waist will be surrounded by the arms of my husband. These legs will be what carry me around the park while I’m chasing after my future grandkids. This body will be my happiness in the reflection of those I love most. Now that I think of it, it’s about so much more than feeling beautiful in my skin.

Published by: CurvyFitFabuLOSS

My name is Jessica Wolfe. I am the wife of an incredible man and father. He and I have been together longer than we have been apart. We have two sons, one is 18 and a freshman at Indiana State University majoring in Music Education. Our 13 year old son is in the 7th grade and is being home schooled. My vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery was on June 16, 2016. My total gastrectomy was March 3, 2017. I’ve recently found out I have a fairly large benign tumor in my brain. I also have something going on in my lower spine between my L5 and S1. It seems as though surgery is imminent. Through this blog, I share my life with you and am brutally honest with myself so that when I do look back, I can see what it was that made me make the decisions I did. I also welcome opinions and questions as it challenges my thoughts and helps me grow from where I am. If you want to check me out anywhere else, please do! Instagram: CurvyFitFabuLOSS Snapchat: Momma_Wolfe717 Email:

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2 thoughts on “In This Skin”

  1. Love you Jess, I always thought you were a wonderful person, you have a great soul. I also felt like I was always to fat all through middle school as well as through high school, heck most of my adult life honestly, but you know what they say, I wish I was as fat as I thought I was the first time I thought I was fat LOL. Anyway i just wanted to tell you, you are awesome! My Man friend has gone through the gastric bypass and he has done wonderfully with his journey. I myself have just gone through a strict diet/exercise plan and have lost 80 lbs since September. To tell you the truth it is mostly all about the diet and when you get to that samer size and feel more comfortable, I say its all about weight training then cardio. Diet for sure but the weight train /cardio I am still testing, pretty sure I am right though. You know get in your intervals but keep up on a good every other day weight training. I not trying to beef up but I would like long lean muscles to go along with my stretch marks and cellulite :-).


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