First swl

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So, as you know, I had my first supervised weight loss appointment yesterday. I don’t know what I expected, but it wasn’t what I got. I was really looking forward to meeting new people on this same journey that are near me. And I did. But they weren’t as friendly with me as I thought. I’m the newcomer, I guess.

I checked in and was met in the waiting room by the dietician. She took me to get my weight. I was stoked because I lost more than I thought. I’m down just a few ounces less than 12 pounds in less than a month! Which is amazing!! But, I worry that I’ll lose too much and my insurance won’t cover it. Has anyone else felt that way? I know I can’t be the only one.

Next, she took me to a small conference room where three other people were already waiting. I think two of them were married to each other, but I’m not sure. I didn’t get a “Hi, nice to meet you,” or anything really when I said hello to them. Which made me feel super awkward and uncomfortable. If you know me, you know I talk A LOT when I’m nervous. I’m sure that annoyed them to no end because eventually the two people I think are married started throwing daggers at me with their eyes. So, okay. I guess I’ll keep my questions to myself. I thought the whole idea was to get info. My mistake.

We went through a short PowerPoint about protein after surgery and how to calculate grams to ounces. Simple enough, but absolutely informative. We looked at labels and then went through the instructions for a 5 minute workout. That part made me feel like an invalid. All the things were super simple and hardly anything. I think this will come in handy right after the surgery, but isn’t enough to help sustain a lifestyle change like this. But, maybe I have unrealistic expectations for post surgery.

I left feeling like my concerns were not heard or even cared about. I’m hoping it’ll be better next month. I guess for now I’ll just have to open up more to other vsg people out in the Instagram world and here to get the information that I need. Those seem to be the best ways to network.

An update on my fears to tell people. I finally told the rest of my family. I was so worried about what they would think  but I realized that I don’t give a shit what they think. I put it out there on Instagram too. So all those people know. The only people left to tell are my husband’s family. It’s not really that I don’t want to tell them. Well, it kind of is. I have always felt very judged by them. And for some reason I actually care what they think. His oldest sister has been very sick lately so I don’t want to bother her. And his youngest sister is mad at me for something unrelated. His mom is so wrapped up in everything she does for everyone else that I don’t want to worry her. I’ll get there with them eventually. I just have to be ready.
**Update: After reading through this again and giving it some thought, I realized that I don’t really give a shit what anyone thinks. I called his sister and told her too. Now, everyone knows.

Anyways, I have decided to treat myself to a pedicure to get ready for spring! Spring is my favorite season. Everything is blooming and beautiful. I love the smells and the colors. I even love the rain. I can’t wait!!

Published by: CurvyFitFabuLOSS

My name is Jessica Wolfe. I am the wife of an incredible man and father. He and I have been together longer than we have been apart. We have two sons, one is 18 and a freshman at Indiana State University majoring in Music Education. Our 13 year old son is in the 7th grade and is being home schooled. My vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery was on June 16, 2016. My total gastrectomy was March 3, 2017. I’ve recently found out I have a fairly large benign tumor in my brain. I also have something going on in my lower spine between my L5 and S1. It seems as though surgery is imminent. Through this blog, I share my life with you and am brutally honest with myself so that when I do look back, I can see what it was that made me make the decisions I did. I also welcome opinions and questions as it challenges my thoughts and helps me grow from where I am. If you want to check me out anywhere else, please do! Instagram: CurvyFitFabuLOSS Snapchat: Momma_Wolfe717 Email: CurvyFitFabuLOSS@yahoo.com

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5 thoughts on “First swl”

  1. I’m so proud of you for telling everyone, took a lot of courage to do so, I know how bad it was bothering you glad you jumped over that hurdle!❤️

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  2. Find out what the lowest BMI your insurance company requires to qualify for surgery, I think mine was 40, and then you have an idea what weight you need to stay above. Good luck!

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  3. Good luck on your journey. I first went to see my surgeon at 251lbs anything below 230lbs and I wouldn’t have qualified for surgery. I therefore didn’t really try to loose any weight during the 6 months I had to wait before surgery for fear that I would loose to much. Anyways I was 245 the day I started my pre op liquid diet and 237 on the day of surgery. Nine days later I am 230lbs and would more than likely be denied surgery by by insurance company. Crazy!!

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